Estelle: Heartbeat by Elizabeth Scott

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Publication Date: January 28, 2014
Publisher: Harlequin Teen
Pages: 304
Target audience: Young Adult
Keywords: parental death, grief, step-parents
Format read: ARC paperback reviewed at BEA in May 2013.

Summary: When her pregnant mom dies suddenly from a stroke, Emma is completely distraught, and even more so when her stepfather, Dan, decides to have her mother’s body kept alive by machines in an effort to help their unborn baby survive. She completely shuts everyone and everything out of her life except Olivia (her best friend) and surprisingly, Caleb — a boy from school known for his rebellious acts.

“I think at a certain point you can choose to sort of fall from this or you can choose to rise.” – Lea Michele

I hope you don’t think it’s hokey that I’m using that quote to start off this review. But it just so happened Michele was making her first TV interview appearance a few days after I finished Heartbeat and everything she was saying aligned so well with the heavy subject matter tackled in Heartbeat: grief and what we do afterward.

Heartbeat begins shortly after Emma’s mom dies and Emma hasn’t gotten to that point that Michele talks about. Instead Emma’s life as she knows it — ruled by school deadlines and grades and the future — has taken a sudden nosedive into an abyss of not caring. Not caring about school, not caring about college prospects, and most definitely not caring about her step-father, Dan.

As far as non-biological parents go, it’s obvious from Emma’s memories and hurt feelings that Dan was a perfectly attentive and super loving father (she is so lucky). These good moments seem to disappear the minute Dan makes a very difficult decision without asking her opinion. In order to keep Emma’s unborn sibling alive, Dan chooses to keep her mother’s body hooked up to machines to ensure a better chance of survival for this child.

Can you imagine seeing your dead mother every single day, working enough to keep a baby alive but not quite enough to wake up and speak to you again? For Emma, it’s like part of the greiving process is put on hold because the small tiny possibility that her mom could wake up still pops up. So she’s angry at Dan — angry because she doesn’t think he knows how her mom really felt about anything and angry because of this baby that will never know his mother.

Scott’s book largely consists of Emma’s internalizations because most of her actions have become routine: make it through school, see Mom, ignore Dan, be comforted by her best friend, Olivia. Rinse and repeat. Misunderstood bad boy, Caleb, shakes things up when he shows up volunteering at the hospital. Emma is drawn to him, and it’s their budding friendship and his ability to relate to what she is going through that gives her something to think about other than her mother. Exactly the first tiny step she needs.

Emma’s journey of moving ahead and moving on is not smooth. Not even close. She is fixated on so many small details, probably trying to find a way to make such a non-sensical thing like death make sense. While understandable, I felt this was frustrating as a reader. It was like I knew what she was thinking before she thought it; even once she hit certain ephiphanies, Emma continued to go back and forth with her feelings. There were so many times I wanted Dan to rush in and pull rank; an adult really needed to. She was a struggling child, and blatantly disrespected Dan and her mom’s marriage on multiple occasions.

One thing I did appreciate was Emma’s friendship with Olivia (who hated all techy things; I loved this detail). I think Scott did a realistic job of portraying two girls who suddenly have very different lives. How do you give comfort to a friend when you haven’t experienced the same kind of heartbreak? How can you share your own problems when they seem so trivial compared to Emma’s situation? Emma and Olivia had a little bit of work, a bit of a struggle, and it was a conflict that felt so true to life.

None of the characters in Heartbeat are perfect, and while that portrayal felt spot-on (because who really knows how they are going to act until they are forced into this terrible situation), I wish I hadn’t felt quite so disconnected from Emma. The book is extremely fast-paced because the chapters are so compact, but Emma’s growth through the story didn’t progress quite the way I thought it should. I was never expecting her to be 100% okay but the “breakthrough” came very late in the story, and it felt off.

I do think Heartbeat is a very discussion worthy novel because of all the shades of gray it presents. Was Dan right in his decision? Is Emma being selfish? How do you figure out what the deceased wanted without second guessing yourself? There’s so much that’s intriging here and the chemistry between Emma and Caleb is great but, in the end, Heartbeat just didn’t have the emotional impact I was expecting.

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10 thoughts on “Estelle: Heartbeat by Elizabeth Scott

  1. alice-jane says:

    The synopsis for Heartbeat reminds me so much of Priscille Sibley’s The Promise of Stardust, which is an adult fiction novel. In Sibley’s novel, the MC’s pregnant wife has an accident, leaving her brain dead and left to deal with the religious, moral and other reasons for keeping her alive.

    While Heartbeat didn’t seem like it had the extra oomph-factor that it could’ve had, I do agree that it is an incredibly discussion worthy piece. So many different factors to be considered when something like that happens.

    Also, The Promise of Stardust is absolutely amazing and I think it’s a great book that has a lot of emotional impact, so maybe it can make up for Heartbeat? 🙂

  2. Tara says:

    I’ve heard that this is a really heavy story and your review just solidified that. It’s been sitting on my bookshelf waiting for me to get into the right mood/frame of mind to give it a solid go…and I’m really nervous about it. I love E. Scott’s writing so much that I’m afraid of what I’ll think. Basically I need to suck it up and read it 🙂

  3. Rachel says:

    I adored this book so much, but your feelings make COMPLETE sense. Emma is definitely not a likable character (I mean this in a good way. Not all characters should be ‘likable’), and while she was very selfish, I understood where she was coming from and was able to look past her behavior for the most part.

  4. Ginger @ GReads! says:

    I know we’ve already discussed this book, since we read it at the same time, but I wanted to comment on your review. Mine will be going up next week and it mirrors a lot of your same thoughts & feelings. I did not connect with this MC and that had a lot to do with my disconnect from the book. I, too, felt the “break through” was rather rushed.

    Side note: I read yesterday in the news that a story very similar to this situation is going on right now near Dallas (I think?). Anyway.. there’s a huge legal controversy regarding it because the family says the hospital doesn’t have rights to keep the Mom alive while the baby is still inside her, growing.. yet the hospital says they do? I’m not sure on the details, but when I read it I immediately thought of this book.

  5. Alexa S. says:

    I still haven’t read this one, despite having an early copy of it in my hands! But I am very intrigued by the story. I think the whole subject matter that this book presents is definitely worthy of discussion. There are so many people and feelings and “ifs” involved, and I just feel like it would be interesting to unravel it all. It’s a little sad to hear you weren’t able to connect well with the main character though!

  6. brittany @ The Book Addict's Guide says:

    Oh my god, I actually had no idea what this book was about!!! I picked it up at BEA too but I didn’t realize the subject matter. Holy cow. I think I’ll be able to pick it up soon and hopefully I’ll enjoy it and appreciate the book! Curious to see how the read goes!

  7. Liz (Along for the Read) says:

    I definitely agree, I didn’t connect quite as much as I was hoping, but it was such an interesting moral issue that it made up for that. Definitely a unique book, worth reading, but not one that I would re-read. Great review, as always!

  8. Bookworm1858 says:

    I can see this being a great discussion novel specifically because of the question of if Dan should have left the mom on life support. I loved it and am looking forward to others getting a chance to read it once it’s released! (I’m a huge Elizabeth Scott fangirl.)

  9. Ellice says:

    I requested Heart Beat on Netgalley, but I’m such a mood reader and so far I just haven’t been in the right frame of mind to start this one. Poor Emma. I can’t imagine a teenager waking up every morning, knowing that she will have to face that situation. So heart wrenching!

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