Nothing beats the feeling of falling in love with an author’s work for the first time…except maybe revisiting that work and realizing you’re just as enthralled as you were that very first time. With so many new books being released every week, it’s not always as convenient to go back and spend time with those old favorites. Part of it is the sheer volume of books in the world, sure, but I think there’s also this teenie tiny fear that you won’t connect with a certain title quite as strongly as you did the first time. Time passes, circumstances change, and so does the way we read and interpret these stories. It’s entirely possible but true love is forever and this is certainly true of my relationship with Trish Doller’s books.
I remember exactly where I was when I read Something Like Normal (it took a round trip between home and work on the train) and the same with Where the Stars Still Shine (on a plane ride — with a layover in Chicago — heading back home from a wonderful visit in Austin with Magan). Apparently transportation plays into reading time with Doller’s books. I really must like crying in public. But in all seriousness, any reader would want to be holed up in a closed space with one of these delectable contemporaries. The girls are genuine and strong and different degrees of broken. The boys are real and emotional and just as messy as any teenage girl is expected to be. (In real life, we know this is how the story goes but too few young adult books make it known.) Family is around and either great or not, which is majorly reflective of real life too.
Since I’m writing this on a public platform and not disguising any titles or names (Drish Toller?), I’m sure you can guess that I decided to re-read both titles recently (to build up to my excitement of the long awaited The Devil You Know) and well, you would have thought it was a 2015 release that wasn’t actually covered in a bit of dust. (It gets really dusty in this apartment; I swear I’ve moved my copy since I bought it!) I eased right into Something Like Normal and didn’t let a massive headache stop me from finishing. Where the Stars Still Shine was practically burning a book-sized hole in my purse when I wasn’t able to pick it up. (Somehow I didn’t think my mom would accept it if I chose a book over one of our rare visits.) I know how both of these ended, and I remembered the massive moments but with Dollar, it’s all about the details — Travis’s friendship with Charlie and his love of thrift shops; Callie’s guitar, the lights in her Airstream, how her nickname became Peach. They makes these stories so familiar, so alive, and so distinctly her.
A few more observations:
- I forgot how lovely the relationship between Travis and his mom is. He’s feeling guilty because she was so dedicated to being a great Marine mom while he was in Afghanistan and he barely called home but she understood. She didn’t hound him or make him feel guilty, and on the flip side, when she needs someone, he’s there in a huge way. Their relationship wasn’t always perfect (by a long shot) but time away gave him perspective and changed how they relate to each other forever.
- Water can heal. Both books are set in Florida (which I love) so it’s no big surprise that there are some beachy scenes in both. I’m an Aquarius. I believe in the power of water. In Something Like Normal, Travis spends the day on a boat with his Marine pals and an old school friend, Harper. A day like that makes him trust that he can work through what’s ailing him. Where the Stars Still Shine features one of my favorite scenes in a book ever — Callie and Alex snorkeling. It’s so overwhelmingly beautiful, and it has nothing to do with the chemistry between these two but all about the intimacy of nature and the two of them getting to know each other.
- Strong female characters who know what they want (or don’t) who like sex (or don’t) who believe in shooting straight with a guy even if it seems silly not to be “over” a certain situation all these years later (Harper) or succumb to attraction and teeter around the possibility of something more (Callie). Those who want friendships but don’t always know how to be friend; who want acceptance from others and themselves for all their messy parts in addition to all the good.
- For all of the tough moments (PTSD, kidnapping, abuse, etc.), Doller never forgets to inject the little joys into the lives of her characters. From friendship to family to newfound indie bookstores and a night watching sea turtles, there is so much for each of these characters to embrace as they work to overcome their own battles. The exact ups and downs we face every single day.
This is what I know after diving into these worlds again: these books need to be dog-eared, highlighted, and embraced over and over again by young adults who want to be talked to with respect and maturity and adults who are undoubtably facing so many of the same challenges as these characters. Loss, misunderstanding, betrayal, happiness, belonging, and taking the necessary steps toward renewal and peace with a side order of forgiveness. Most of all, it’s a shame that coming across these books in my local bookstores is a challenge. I wish it wasn’t because I know so many could benefit from these stories — whether it’s because they felt similar pain or because they’re looking for the full reading experience.
So while new books and voices are wonderfully impossible to avoid, there’s something to be said for the ones that are always waiting patiently in the shadows of our outrageous piles, ready to welcome you back and unlock more of their layers.
Trish Doller’s new book, The Devil You Know, released on June 2, 2015.
Also see: The Re-Read Challenge.